Raw Chocolate! Sharing My Love!

I’ve had a busy, amazing day! making Raw Chocs! It never ceases to amaze me how therapeutic cacao is! It takes me to the place of love, nostalgia and awakens all my senses. The smell is divine and sensual! The feel of silky smooth melted chocolate, swirling around the bowl is arousing and sexual! Watching the reflection of light amidst the spiral upon spiral is Alchemical and quite often sends me into a trance like state! Pouring the melted chocolate into the moulds wishing I could bathe in a spring of warm chocolate, opens my heart chakra and unleashes my inner Goddess! Decorating the chocolates sends my right brain into a swirl of creativity! I love Cacao, love pouring my love into the cacao and I feel so grateful to be able to share my love with whoever chooses to eat my chocolate love <3

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Happy 60 th birthday Mum! I love You!

I love you Mum!

This has been a tough week emotionally, My Dear Mum would have been 60 today!

Mum lost her battle with cancer at the age of 43.

17 years without her love, support, encouragement and wisdom!

My younger Sister’s, Beck was 11 and Heidi 19 when Mum passed away, I am grateful I had Mum in my life until I was 24.

My girls were 2 and 5 when Nanny went to heaven.

You would be so proud of your Grandchildren Mum! Yasmin, Ruby, Charlotte, Joshua, Bethany, Liam, Chester, Archie, Ivy, Jacob and Albert. 

You would have loved having a houseful of your children,Grandchildren and Great Grandchildren. 

Witnessing Mum deteriorating was the heaviest pain I have felt in my heart!

Watching you being so brave for all of us Mum was inspirational and heart rendering all at the same time.

Turning up one day unannounced and watching you through the dining room window mowing the lawn. Hairless due to the poisons searing through your veins, your already tiny frame, diminished to 5stone, a sports cap on your head soaked with sweat, pushing the manual lawn mower back and forth in the heat of July sun.

I open the back door once I have dried my eyes and shout hello!

You look up and smile, pleased to have some company.

I ask you “why you are mowing the lawn” Your reply is typical of you Mum.

“Your Dad is so busy with looking after Beck, going to work and caring for me Stel, I know its driving him mad the lawn overgrown. He needs to rest!”

This sums you up Mum! You were a fighter to your last breath, you never complained about the awful pain you was in, you kept this to your quiet times with Dad away from your Daughters as you didn’t want to worry us.

I will never forget our last hug Mum, you had barely moved all day.

It was taking all your energy to breath, I knew you was slipping away from your pain and suffering, preparing to enter into a much nicer place. I said to you don’t hold on for us Mum. You pulled me close and hugged me as tight as you could and said I love you! You managed to hold your last breath until you had seen all of your family, your Mum and your baby girl.

I love you too Mum! You have and always will be an inspiration to me! You were a fighter. At your funeral we couldn’t fit everyone in, I bet you couldn’t believe that. You always felt different because of your agoraphobia. Guess what Mum everyone loved you just how you were. The only person that struggled to love you was you!

I had so many people sharing their stories of how you had been there for them, made them smile, made them laugh!

You were a very special lady, a strong woman, a gentle soul, an amazing Mother, Grandmother, Loyal Wife and a caring Friend.

Our home was nicknamed the head rest! Because all though you didn’t go out much Mum! Everyone was welcome in our home. Anyone that needed some time out, a chat, a nice cup of a tea and a slice of your homemade cake.

You and Dad created a lovely space for people to come and feel safe, warmed by the fire and filled with your unconditional love.

I miss you every day, always in my heart!

I made you your favourite a chocolate Birthday cake I Hope you don’t mind that its suitable for vegans 😉

Love you forever!

Love from your Daughter Stella xxxxx

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Raw Vitality

Great day today sharing my journey to health, recipes and inspiritaion at Therapy Life Centre

I spoke about the Yin Yang Philosphy of health, I love the simplicity of the Yin Yang system.

Loved sharing lots of tasters, Raw crackers, Garlic mushrooms, Chocolate fudge brownie, new recipe Halva, Raw chocs and lots more.

First day back for my Tai Chi class since Christmas, there were 9 new people came for a free taster. I am really pleased with that.

Some great qigong tonight people feeling their own Chi for the first time, we really built up some energy in the class. I love it!

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Feeling bloated! Christmas aftermath of too much cooked food! Miss Farty Pants!

Happy New Year 🙂 I hope 2014 brings you all you wish for and more!
Christmas was fantastic, spent lots of time with my family. We had lots of laughter, too much food and not enough salad!
I’m feeling rather yucky!
It has been a great experience….. Why ? Because without the Yin we do not appreciate the Yang. Check out this video explanation http://youtu.be/0BgThtHsakU
We have to have the opposite to appreciate things.
Without darkness, how would we appreciate the light ?
Without sadness, how would we appreciate happiness ?
Without feeling unwell how would we appreciate feeling well ?
You get the idea 🙂

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Its approaching nine years now since I gradually integrated more raw foods, juices and fermented drinks/foods. I have been eating predominantly Raw food living foods for near on two years now! My 2nd Vegan Birthday is coming up on 1st April 🙂
I do not see this bloated, aching body as a negative, I’m not beating myself up! I realise its all part of my journey.
It’s come to show me the polarity of cooked versus raw food diet!
How do I feel ?
I feel bloated, heavy, lethargic, my knees hurt, my ankles ache, I smell different! Yes I smell musty again! When you consume mostly living raw foods you smell fresher! The worst side effect has been constant wind, yes I’ve turned into farty pants. Not attractive really 🙂 I’ve not been sleeping as well and my connection to Spirit is not as strong.
I will not do this again next Christmas, why did I do it this Christmas ? To fit in, laziness, greed, self sabotage to name a few.
Next Christmas I will plan at least a month in advance like I did last year, last Christmas I lost weight.
During Christmas I have remained on a Vulcan, dairy free, egg free, vegetarian diet, I’ve eaten far too many Yin foods(acid forming) such as roast potatoes, nuts and some crisps.
What I’ve realised though is its not what I’ve eaten! Its what I’ve not eaten! I’ve not had enough Yang foods (alkaline forming) such as juices, salads, sprouts or fermented foods/drink.
I didn’t practice my Tai Chi and Qi Qong enough either, Tai Chi oxygenates the blood and is a Yang (alkalising) activity.
I am getting back on track now and feeling better already. I am looking forward to the aching in my knees and ankles to disappear.
I felt 10 years older and that’s not where I want to be.
I will continue to keep you posted on how I’m feeling, will be interesting to see how long it takes for my body to recuperate.
I have some great new Healthy Raw recipes to share, watch this space!
Be In Spirit
Stella x

Life is like a box of chocolates :-)

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Forrest Gump: My momma always said, “Life was like a box of chocolates. You never know what you’re gonna get.”
So true unless you make your own chocolates! You can then have your favourite every time 🙂